It’s about that time of the year that I need to update this blog. Nearly 6 months have passed & I must say, my life is getting better everyday.
First of all, I’ve sold my Toa Payoh house last August & currently living at my sister’s place in Woodlands for the next 3 years or so. I do have the intention to buy my own place when I’m 35 years old most likely in 2 years time or more depending on the property market. Initially when I shifted to Woodlands, it took me a while to get used to it but as the days goes by, I’m able to cope with it.
I’ve a new hobby recently pick up in the very same month I sold my house. The small tiny fortune that I get from the house was invested into DSLR Canon EOS 7D & the accessories. When I bought this camera, I was actually very excited because it has been my dream since my teenage years to own a SLR camera. Back then in the 90s, DSLR was not invented yet & SLR camera cost a huge amount of money & eventually that fragile teenage dream of mine just fade off.
In the recent 2 years, seeing many of my colleagues owning a DSLR camera makes me envy of them. My long lost teenage urge of owning one slowly resurface again after more than 10 years. Anyway, currently I’m still trying to figure out my own photography style & type that really define myself. I’ve a photoblog for this but it’s still brand new & not much photos yet. Click here to see or go to www.uanz.com
Ok, let’s proceed to other areas of my life.
My work life is still the same as mentioned in my last mid year update.! I still love the job & surprisingly, I took up another responsibility as Assistant Cluster Leader. This is surprising on my part after giving up the Cluster Leader post early this year in January. I guess after the move, I have more time for another responsibilty. The irony to this, I’ve lost my Gebiz facilitator post for my company training department as my school had terminate my gebiz account & given it to another person whom I think are in more needs to have a Gebiz account than me. Fair enough I thought because it means less work for me! Hahaha.. 🙂
Now, let’s talk about my love life. Well, I don’t bother about it anymore. I’m more cautious than ever. I’ve tried socialising & making new friends hoping something to happen but seriously, I just don’t have it anymore in myself. It seems that I just do it because of people are constantly telling me to socialise & make new friends. Maybe it’s still too early to find love or maybe I have trust issue with new people. You know, there’s always a question that always pop out in my mind. In 4 or 5 years down the road, people will change their heart so why bother putting myself into the line again & get hurt all over again 4 or 5 years later.! Then there is another issue where you have to work super hard to make sure the relationship works well with myself & my daughter. Can you see the complications coming to me if I have another new partner?
So I rather not get myself into that road again. It save me & my daughter a lot of headaches & complications. The question is why would I want to risk the happiness I have right now by bringing in a new partner? To me, it doesn’t make any sense going into that road which will eventually leads to more complications to me as well as to my daughter Sheza.
Some of you may argue that I will get lonely without a partner in life. Of course I will be lonely. Who doesn’t right? But looking at the big picture, I rather be lonely than having mega problems if I were to choose that route again. Anyway, I don’t stand to lose anything at all. I’ve been married before so I know what it feels like to be married or having a relationship . I have a daughter so I know how it feels to have a child. I think you know what I mean.
So to simply sum up my love life, it ended on the day I got divorced. In fact putting this in writing in this blog really makes me happy somehow. Weird but nice. Maybe I did see the whole big picture & putting other people’s happiness way in front of my own happiness really make me happy. That’s all that matters to me.
Moving forward, now with marriage or love life put to rest, I have more time to myself & my daughter. I guess my priority in life has shifted primary to my daughter. She will have me as long as she wants & I will make sure she grows up as one complete person in both worlds.
So what’s new right now? Hmm.. Beside my new hobby in photography, I have one more new thing that I need to do in 2011. Actually, it’s not really new to me. It’s in fact something that I need to pick up again after dropping it since late 2007. Sadly though, this new thing actually play a minor tiny part to why my marriage succumb to failure. But this time round, I’m going to do it with lots of caution. Of course, now that I’m single & has no other commitment except to my daughter, I have more freedom to work on my personal project next year.
By now, most of you might be wondering what the hell am I talking about. Hahaha. Sorry to keep all of you guessing. Ok enough with the suspense. I’m going to start my journey of earning income online in 2011. So I’m back to affliate marketing & internet marketing for the 2nd time. One thing I learnt from my previous experience is that I won’t get myself involved in network marketing! As I know, I can’t depend on people to achieve what I want. So hell NO to Network Marketing! Anyway, the new project will focus on strangers online & will not be marketed to my friends, families or colleagues. Simply saying that those who personally knows me won’t receive any offering/spam from me ya. Hahaha.
So with these new plans for 2011, I will be very busy doing things that I love most. Yeah..
Hmm. I’ve just realised that I’ve missed some important update here. Oh ya. It’s about my new found interest in the Barclay Premier League team Tottenham Hotspurs!! I’m still crazy about them! Hahaha. I’ve been following this team since January 2009! Ok. That’s not long ago & I’m still quite new compared to those hardcore old fans. But who cares right!? I’m enjoying it every moments everytime Spurs play their game every week. They have improved so much than the time I first lay eyes on them which was back in January 2009! All these thanks to Harry Redknapp as the manager.
I think I should stop here as this update are reaching 1500 words already. Haha. So in summary of 201o, I must say, it’s been a very good year for me. I’m very clear on what I want to in the future. I’m very happy most of the time this year although sometimes I do feel sad on certain things. I’m not as lonely as before because currently I have tons of things to do during my free time. Financially, I’m better than the previous year. I’ve also pick up new hobby in photography. I’m happy on my daughter’s well being. I’m happy to be able to work closely with my ex wife with regards to my daughter. I’m happy everyone close to me is happy.
So yeah. 2010 is a very good year for me. All this are possible because 2010 is the year I start to look at all things positively & simply ignore the other negativity in my life be it emotionally or physically, as well as from other external factors such as from friends, colleagues, partners, family, surroundings & most importantly my very own self. For once this year, I’ve started to look beyond myself & stop thinking selfishly about myself. I’ve start putting others first before myself. However, this mindset will applies until it reach my own limitation. It proved to be a good result for me as all that I ever wanted was a little happiness & I did accomplished it this year! 🙂
So now, addition to my final words, I do believe in the following quote, “When the night seems to be its darkest, it means the sun will soon rise up. Press on.. Don’t give up!” I’ve to thank my ex colleague & a dear friend Mr Alan Teo for introducing this quote via A4 size frame which he personally give it to me back in late 2009. I’ve placed this quote on my workstation so that I can read it everyday to remind myself about it.
That’s all for now ya.. See ya on the next post! 🙂
& Thanks so much for reading my update..
& pardon me if you find my English full of grammar/vocabulary mistakes ya! 🙂
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