Loving Saturday

Of all the days in the week, I find that Staurdays are always the sweetest day than the rest of the week.

Although I know that I have to work  every Saturday morning due to the CDAC Tuition at school, it is still better than any other days. Some of you who have been following my updates probably already know the reason to why I regard Saturdays as my sweetest day.

For those who are still clueless, it is because of my daughter that I like every Saturday. It’s the day that I will get to see my daughter during the weekends. After going through the seperation & divorce with my ex, the days that I spend my time with my daughter is regarded as my precious moments of all time. Nothing can beat the satisfaction of seeing my own daughter Aria Sheza.

I want to be the best father that I can for her.  The effect of the divorce has yet to reach her because she is too young to understand it. I know that when she grow up, she will start asking many questions to why Abah & Mommy don’t live together like her friends’ parents. I tried to write down the possible questions that she might ask so that when the times come, I will be prepared to answer her all of her queries & doubts pertaining to the divorce.

I’m a worried father when it comes to my daughter. Her well being is always put forward first before others. She’s all that I have. My blood. My Life. My Precious. I have never wanted to put her in this situation. Agreeing to the divorce mutually is also for her own goods. Imagine if I disagree to the divorce, a war will break out between me & my ex, & eventually the divorce will still go through but the relationship will be tarnished & my daughter will suffers. I don’t want that to happen to her.

As it is, the divorce is mutual, me & my ex is still on talking terms. We don’t fight like other divorced couple we see nowadays. Both of us are still working towards  our daughter’s happiness even though we know a divorce always end up the other way.

However, I do not know the effect of the divorce with this unique circumstances. I do not know how she will turn out to be. I don’t know the future. Everyday I think about it fearing & asking myself that if the best my ex & I did for her enough to make her a succesful person when she grows up.

It’s a worry that has been hunting me ever since the seperation in Nov 2008. All I can do now is do my best as a father & do more than what a normal father would do. Many people have told me that she will turn out ok but that is not enough to assure me of her happiness.  I always ask myself to why all this is happening her. What did my daughter do to deserve this at a young age.  I don’t ask for this & neither did her. Why??

Only Allah Knows the reason for I still believe there’s always a reason for every things that happen in your life. Should end here because I’m meeting my cutie pie daughter later!! Yeahh… 🙂

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