It’s been a while since I last wrote my last entry in this blog, more than 2 years to be exact. My little girl is all grown up now. She’s in primary 1 this year & what a change it has been for us. Her mommy has since remarried last December & Sheza is now staying with them in their new home.
So how do I feel about all this changes? Seriously I don’t know. I’m at lost most of the time since my ex-wife got remarried.
Let’s leave this self-pity story of myself aside for another entry in the near future. I’m supposed to write about my daughter, her primary 1 experience to date & her difficulties in adapting to this new chapter in her life.
She seems to struggle in the first few weeks into her primary one adventure. To date, she has been missing school for a few days already due to high fever & a swollen left face. She complained of nausea every single morning & in some days she vomited after she had her breakfast before going to school. I have no idea if she’s faking it in order not to go to school. She’s a good little girl & since nursery days, she loves going to school & I doubt she faking it. I trust her so much.
In addition, according to her mommy, there’s a change in her behavior as well. She gets agitated, grumpy & cries easily on little minor things. A big change in her behavior is affecting her mommy thus making her to feel helpless & stressful trying to manage my little girl. I’m sympathized my ex for her to go through this changes as well. I can’t be there because I’m a weekend parent but I do feel their struggles in adapting those new changes during weekdays.
I don’t know what I can do to help them both. Her mommy shared with me her problems in dealing with Sheza. All I can do now is just be understanding, be a listening ear for my ex. For Sheza, I can only comfort & talk to her the best I can in finding out what’s been bothering her the past few weeks. When Sheza is with me on weekends, I don’t see any changes in her behavior at all. It’s normal like any other weekends. That’s what makes me puzzle at times. She behaves differently when she’s with her mommy. The only thing I can understand well is that it’s more stressful for both of them during weekdays as it is school days as compared to during weekend. During weekends, Sheza is more relax & enjoys the company of her 2 cousins whom she plays with very often during weekends.
What makes me very sad is I can’t be there during weekdays to comfort my little girl. She’s with her mommy & new papa in her new home. I wish I can reverse the weekdays for me to take care of Sheza but it’s impossible as I live far away from her new home & school. She can’t possibly be waking up at 5am & travel that far to go to school right? Her school is in Toa Payoh & I’m in Woodlands so it’s an impossible solution.
I’ve a plan though, in fact, it’s the only plan I can think of right now. The only way is to get myself my own place in Toa Payoh. However, it will take me a while before I can do that. The Cash-Over-Valuation (COV) in that estate is crazy high!!! I need to prepare that first & it’s going to be a while before I can find the right seller in the estate.
I just hope both their struggles will get better as the weeks goes on. They have to if not I will be worried & sad. Their happiness is my happiness. That’s all that I ever care since day1.